Ok so I haven't written in this since last school year...fucked up I know. But now I'm back...YEA BABY!!! Anyway...since the last time i wrote in this alot of things have happened. I've had shoulder surgery, an overdose, had my Demo sent to a record company from TAXI (don't worry, I'll explain) I now have bright red hair (that will soon change)I'm in the Pop Orchestra at Columbia and that's awesome (basically I'm one of three singers in a Kick Ass rock band) However, I think the biggest thing that has happened this year is that I found a new group of people to hang out with. They're my friends from Techniques in Singing I...most awesome people ever. I think about four weeks ago now I walked into class and Stephanie told me it was her b-day and that she was doing nothing...so I said "Party at my house" since then there hasn't been one weekend where I haven't been with these people. Impromtu parties, planned parties, parties on the other end of Chicago, going to bars...NOTHING BUT FUN!!! Emily, Camille, Gretchen, Abe, Jillian, Stephanie, Sheena, Violet, and John...and now we're hanging out with Adam and Cody too all the time...this is the new crew. Ashley is there alot of the time but all too often she goes home...there hasn't been one weekend where Ashley has stayed here the whole time. She ALWAYS goes home!!! But that's beside the point. I love my new group of friends, school is awesome, health is great...LIFE IS GOOD!!!

Well kinda, while life is awesome in most aspects...the love life is still lacking. And once again I'm playing the friend. I won't name names on here cause I don't really want anyone to know, but, I like this dude...let's call him Billy. Well, Billy was going out with another one of my friends, let's call her April. Billy always said they weren't really going out they were just hanging out, but April always told me they were together. Well, now they're "backing off" but I'm hearing how hard it is from April how Billy still has feelings for her they're just in different places and someday hopefully they'll get back together. Well, so anyway the point of my story is that once again I'm playing the friend. I'm ALWAYS the friend. I'm the friend to the guy I like and to the girl who he's with. So even if they really are done for, I can't ever EVER have him because I'm her friend and that would make me a major bitch. And also I hear how much she really has feelings for him and how he still has feelings for her (keep in mind though I'm hearing this from her) so it would just be wrong...I'd be a second choice, rebound girl. NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!! I just don't understand why I always end up in this situation...but oh well. I guess I must except my fate...I'm "the friend"